This post by Joe Stephens
I can’t decide how I feel about this time of year. Part of me is looking forward to cool weather and brightly colored leaves and hikes in the woods without a thousand bugs flying in my face. But I have this weird quirk; I struggle sometimes to enjoy what I have because I can’t stop thinking about what comes after it. I just keep thinking about how fall is followed by winter, which is fun for about the first two weeks, and then I’m ready for spring. If we could have snow on Christmas Eve that lasts until New Year’s and then the temperatures went back up to the fifties and sixties, I’d be okay. But as it is, I struggle to enjoy fall because I know it means that snow and cold and dreary aren’t far off.
I’m the same way with weekends. I love Friday nights and Saturdays, but Sunday after church, especially since I spend so much of that time doing school work, is unenjoyable to me because it’s like I’m mentally already back at work. And however many days a vacation is, subtract one and that’s how many I have fun because all I can think about on the last day is how it’s the last day and it’s almost time to go home.
There’s probably a syndrome for that, but I have no idea what it is. Maybe it’s just good old fashioned pessimism. I don’t know. But I’d like to get over it. Maybe when I retire and can spend time in the south during part of the winter and won’t have to go back to work on Mondays and can end vacations when I want to, everything will be better. But in the meantime, I’m robbing myself of joy by focusing on the end instead of being in the moment. Do any of you struggle with that? How do you deal with it?
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