Chapter One: The Provided Answers
A while back, my local library was giving away free books. A lot of these books were my type of books. I completely found it bizarre. I gathered up as many of them as I could and brought them home. I never knew the depth of understanding of why this happened. Until, the synchronicities began speaking to me….
Selected for a Native American entrepreneurship program, I was offered a full scholarship. The program lasted throughout the 2017 summer going through the second week of September. This program was geared toward making business around the August 21, 2017 totality solar eclipse.
I knew this! But, I also knew, how afraid I was to hear the word totality. My mind raced. My thoughts trying to find a safe way out, and a complete, peace of mind. Facing my fear was the main reason for me enrolling into college and looking for a future. I knew I would not and could not be trapped by fear.
On my first day of class……the first day of May 2017, I was overt excited with joy. The opportunity to learn more about business, marketing, and co-ops really held my interest. Selected from more than 100 applicants, I was one of the first ten to take the course. “This is a trial run,” the instructor mentioned, “the future of this program depends on how well and successful this group does.” The awe of a complete honor filled the hearts of every selected applicant. I wondered if they knew we were selected out of one hundred submitted applications? When I first found out, I wanted to cry tears of gratitude.
On the same day of my first day of class, I watched a movie that I had the liberty of watching twice. Once with my mother and brother and once with my husband. The name of the movie is called, ‘Split’ written by M. Night Shyamalan. With 23 different identities, the main character Kevin Wendell Crumb kidnaps and imprisons three teenage girls said, “to be used as sacred food to the beast.” Two of the identities inside of him believed in the beast, while the others believed in the light. Two things came from this movie. One being, the broken are more evolved, they are more awakened. The second being, the brain is amazing, we believe what our mind tells us.
This movie hit so close to home for me. When finished, I went out into the dark, looking up to the moon I prayed. My mother’s house is very close to the town cemetery. As I was in deep conversation with the Creator, in the corners of my eyes and even right in front of me, I saw images that I have a hard time explaining. I thought, the darkness is playing tricks with my mind. I saw them more than once, shadows moving not more than a few feet in front of me. It blurred my vision. They moved rarely fast. After seeing it the second time, I got afraid. I knew it wasn’t my mind playing tricks on me, but something beyond real.
They were spirits.
The next day at school, the instructor introduced cognitive and personality development in individuals. From the 1920s, Swiss, psychologist, Jean Piaget introduced birth to age 2. From when a child is born until they reach two years of age, this stage is the biggest in the learning process. This is where the subconscious is stored and where personality is formed. Value judgments begin forming after birth. Value judgements tell us how to act and how we see ourselves. Between birth and 2, we learn 80% of the knowledge we repeat in a lifetime. After 2 years, the synapsis break off causing the learned behaviors and knowledge to repeat. Basic values can be changed, but must be untaught. I learned the past is still within us today.
Fear comes from something our subconscious has stored. A traumatic experience. I am afraid of the dark. This has been known to me for all my life. I never knew why?
I began to wonder. Is this why I am afraid of the coming total solar eclipse?
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